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« Bonne nuit, maman. »

« Bonne nuit, mon amour. Dors bien. »

Quand il a rencontré Samantha, j’étais contente pour lui. Je pensais qu’il avait enfin trouvé quelqu’un qui le rendrait heureux. La première fois qu’il l’a présentée à la maison, elle était charmante. Elle souriait. Elle m’a aidée à mettre la table.

« Quelle jolie maison, Madame Mary. »

« Merci, ma chère. C’est aussi votre maison. »

The four of us had dinner. Richard told jokes. Robert laughed. Samantha smiled politely. Everything seemed fine. But after that night, things started to change. Robert began spending more time at Samantha’s house. When he came to see us, he was always in a rush.

“Mom, Samantha is waiting for me.”

“Mom, we have plans.”

“Mom, let’s talk another day.”

I did not say anything. I thought it was normal that couples need their space. But I missed my son. I missed our afternoons in the kitchen, our talks before bed, his spontaneous hugs. I missed being his refuge.

When Richard died, Robert stayed with me for the first few weeks. He hugged me at the funeral. He helped me with the paperwork. He kept me company on nights when I could not sleep.

“Mommy, you’re not alone. I’m here.”

But then little by little, he started pulling away again and I was left alone in that big house full of memories and silence.

Now, sitting in my kitchen looking at the coffee mug Robert gave me years ago with the phrase “To the best mom in the world,” I wondered, when did I stop being his world? When did I become an uncomfortable visitor in his life? As I tell all this, I wonder where you might be listening to me. Write the name of your city in the comments.

Six months passed since that uncomfortable visit to Robert’s apartment. I kept calling every week, but the answers were getting shorter.

“Mom, we’re fine. I’ll call you later.”

“Mom, Sophia is sleeping.”

“Mom, we’re busy.”

One day, I decided to go without announcing it. I baked a red velvet cake, Robert’s favorite since he was a child, and took an Uber to their apartment. I rang the doorbell. No one answered. I rang again. I waited. Finally, the door opened, but it was not Robert or Samantha. It was Elizabeth.

“Mary, what a surprise.” She looked at me with that polite smile that did not reach her eyes.

“Hello, Elizabeth. I came to see Robert and the baby. I didn’t know you were here.”

“Yes, I come every week. Samantha really needs me with the baby.”

I stood in the doorway with the cake in my hands, feeling like I was in the way.

“Can I come in?”

Elizabeth hesitated for a second, just one second, but I noticed it.

“Of course, come in. They’re in the living room.”

I went in. Samantha was sitting on the sofa feeding Sophia a bottle. Robert was not there.

“Hello, Samantha.”

“Hello, Mary. What are you doing here?”

The question hurt more than a blow.

“I came to visit you all. I brought a cake.”

“Oh, thanks. Just leave it in the kitchen.”

I went to the kitchen. Elizabeth followed me.

“You know, Mary, maybe you should call before coming over. Samantha has a very strict routine with the baby, and unexpected visits stress her out.”

I turned to look at her.

“I’m Sophia’s grandmother. I’m not a visit.”

Elizabeth smiled.

“Of course not. But you understand that Samantha needs her space. This first-time motherhood thing is very demanding.”

“I know. I was a first-time mom, too.”

“Yes, of course. But things are different now. Moms nowadays are more informed, more conscious. They have methods. Samantha reads a lot of parenting books.”

I did not say anything. I just nodded. I went back to the living room. I sat in the single armchair, the one farthest from the sofa where Samantha was holding Sophia.

“Can I hold her when she finishes eating?”

Samantha exchanged a glance with her mother.

“Better not, Mary. After eating, she needs to be burped. And then I put her down. If people hold her, she gets overstimulated.”

I stayed quiet, watching my granddaughter from afar. So close and yet so distant.

Elizabeth sat next to Samantha.

“Sam, did you tell Mary about the christening party?”

“What party?” I asked.

Samantha was not looking at me.

“We’re christening Sophia next month at the church in Beverly Hills.”

“That’s great. When is it? So I can request the day off at—”

“It’s a small event,” Elizabeth interrupted me. “Just close family and godparents.”

“I am close family. I’m the grandmother.”

“Yes, of course,” Samantha said. “We’ll let you know the date.”

But in her tone, in her look, I knew I was not welcome.

I stayed for 30 more minutes. Elizabeth and Samantha talked to each other about diapers, pediatricians, sleep training methods. I just listened like a stranger in my own family. When I got up to leave, Samantha did not even get up from the sofa.

“Thanks for coming, Mary. Take care.”

Elizabeth walked me to the door.

“Mary, you understand that Samantha is very tired, right? Being a mom is exhausting. I’m here to support her. But you also have your own life. You don’t have to keep coming around so much.”

I stood looking at her. And in that moment, I understood something I had been denying for months. Elizabeth did not want to share her granddaughter, and Samantha was letting it happen.

“I understand,” I finally said.

I left the building with the cake intact in my hands. On the street, a woman sweeping the sidewalk saw me and smiled.

“Did you have some extra cake, Mom?”

I gave it to her.

“Enjoy it.”

She looked at me kindly.

“God bless you. You look sad.”

“I’m fine,” I lied.

I went back home in the Uber, looking out the window, watching the streets of a city that suddenly seemed hostile to me. When I arrived, I sat in the kitchen. I did not cry. Not yet. I just poured myself a glass of water and sat there in silence, feeling how something inside me was starting to shatter.

Two weeks later, I received an invitation via text message. It was an elegant image with gold letters: “Invitation to the christening of Sophia Johnson Gutierrez.” At the end, in small letters, it said, “Private event. RSVP required.”

I called Robert.

“Son, I received the christening invitation.”

“Yes, Mom. Will you be able to come?”

“Of course I’m going. She is my granddaughter.”

There was a silence.

“Mom, there’s something I want to tell you. Elizabeth and her husband are going to be the godparents.”

“Oh, that’s nice.”

“And the party is going to be at their house. It’s an intimate thing. Only 20 people.”

“I understand.”

“Mom, don’t be mad.”

“I’m not mad, son.”

But I was. I just did not know how to say it without sounding like the bitter mother-in-law that Samantha probably thought I was.

On the day of the christening, I arrived at the church early. I put on my best navy blue dress, the one Richard gave me for our 25th anniversary.

“Today, you’ll meet your great-granddaughter, my love,” I whispered to his photograph before leaving.

At the church, I sat in the third pew. In front were Elizabeth, her husband, Samantha, Robert, and all of Samantha’s family. I was alone. When the priest poured the holy water on Sophia’s head, the baby cried. I wanted to cry, too, but I held it in.

After the ceremony, everyone left for Elizabeth’s house. I went in my own car. It was a huge house in Beverly Hills with a yard and a fountain. There were waiters with trays, soft music, elegant decorations. I stayed near the entrance, not knowing where to stand. Samantha was surrounded by her friends, all taking turns holding Sophia. Elizabeth was taking pictures. Robert was serving drinks. No one looked my way.

I approached Robert.

“Son, can I hold Sophia for a moment?”

He looked at Samantha. She shook her head subtly.

“Mom, better later. She’s fussy.”

I stood there like a ghost in my own family. After 2 hours, I left without saying goodbye. No one noticed my absence.

That night at my house, sitting in the darkness of my living room, I understood something that broke my heart. I was no longer a part of my son’s life. I had been replaced, and the worst part was that Robert was allowing it.

The following months were a slow fade. I kept calling Robert, but now only once a week. I did not want to be the pushy mother-in-law that Samantha was surely complaining about.

“Mom, everything okay? I’ll send you pictures of Sophia.”

And he sent me pictures. Sophia in her crib. Sophia with Elizabeth. Sophia in the park. Sophia in Samantha’s arms. He never asked me to come see her in person. I saved every photo in a special folder on my phone. I looked at her before sleeping, imagining what it would be like to hold her, smell her little head, hear her laugh. But they were just photos, screens, distance.

One day, Robert called me.

“Mom, I have to tell you something.”

“What happened, son? Is everything okay?”

“Yes, everything’s fine. It’s just that Samantha and I are thinking of moving house.”

“Seriously? Where to?”

“To a bigger house. Sophia is growing and we need more space.”

“That’s great, son. I’m so happy for you.”

There was a pause.

“Mom, I wanted to tell you something else, too. We’ve been thinking that, well, that you live alone in that big house, and well, you’re already 55 years old. Maybe it would be good for you to think about something smaller, more manageable.”

I felt a pang in my chest.

“Are you telling me to sell my house?”

“No, Mom. I’m just telling you to think about it. That house has a lot of expenses, maintenance, property taxes, utilities, and you’re alone there.”

“This house is my home, Robert. It’s where I raised my son, where I lived with your father.”

“Yes, Mom, I know, but Dad is gone now, and the house is very run-down. The roof leaks, the yard is neglected. It would be more practical to sell it and buy a small apartment, something comfortable for you.”

“And what would I do with all the memories?”

“Mom, memories are in the heart, not on the walls.”

That phrase hurt me more than anything else. Because it came from him, from my son, from the boy who cried when I threatened to throw away his old toys because “they have memories, Mommy.”

“I’ll think about it,” I finally said.

But I was not going to think about it. That house was the only thing I had left of Richard, of my life, of myself. I was not going to sell it.

Three months passed. Robert did not mention the subject again until one day I received another call.

“Mom, we found a house. It’s beautiful. It has four bedrooms, a yard, an office. It’s in a very secure gated community in Orange County.”

“That’s great, son. I’m so happy for you.”

“Mom, there’s something else.”

His tone changed. He sounded nervous.

“What’s wrong?”

“Well, to buy the house, we need a big down payment. And, well, our savings are not enough. So, we thought that, well, maybe you could help us.”

I stayed quiet.

“Help you how?”

“Well, with a loan, or if you sell your house, you could give us a part as an investment in our future. In Sophia’s future.”

I felt the floor moving beneath my feet.

“Robert, that house is all I have.”

“Mom, I’m not asking you to give it to us. Just to help us. We are your family. Sophia is your granddaughter. Don’t you want her to grow up in a nice place?”

“Of course I do, son.”

“But Samantha says her parents already helped us with half. But we still need more. And, well, I thought you’d want to contribute, too.”

There it was. The comparison, the pressure. Elizabeth had already given. I had to give, too.

“How much do you need?”

“$50,000.”

Fifty thousand dollars. It was almost all the money I had saved. The money that Richard and I saved for years for our old age. The money that was now only mine.

“Robert, that is a lot of money.”

“Mom, we’ll pay you back with interest. I’ll sign a promissory note, but we need your help.”